Another diary entry that’s been sitting in my phone for weeks now.
Things will be different from now on, and that’s okay. That’s normal and that’s simply life.
Just like how you smile and wave at your now ex-coworker on the day of your resignation. You bid “bye” and smiled and they all smiled back at you, and you know at that moment that it will be your last exchange of goodbyes. You may or may not see them again but you didn’t hesitate to close the elevator. Because you know that’s how to end it, and it’s the only way – to leave these wonderful people behind in the most civil way. You didnt cry nor did they, but you’re aware how much it’s hurting inside. It’s okay to entertain pain, but you just didn’t. Why? Because it was your choice. And you dont wanna go on the following days whining about how wrong your decision was, so on that same moment you accepted the truth and you promised yourself that everything will be fine, in time. Because you choose it. And you’ll prove yourself that right or wrong, you’ll stand by your words. May it be wrong, then you’ll learn, but you will not look back and regret.
Of course all goodbyes are hard, but at the same time the fact that you managed to survive the entire day knowing that everything associated with this or that has ended, you will get over it entirely, eventually. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Right now, that’s all you have to do and you’re good.