December 9, 2015
This perhaps is one of the biggest positive news that I’ve received so far.
I just finished praying. I am truly grateful. I am truly happy. I feel so blessed. For a long time, I had been blankly contemplating on my existence. I was skeptical as to what my purpose was, or to what direction my life was going. It was a hard and long journey, and it was something I could have not done without God. I spent days pondering on what I will do with my life, searching for “myself,” jumping from one job to another to discover where I truly belong and to where I am the most effective at, applying for jobs even when I was not sure if they were truly what I wanted. All of these things were hard to go through. Up to this point I still have confused thoughts, but I will never ask God questions. I just know that He has the best plan for me, definitely better than what I planned and what I am currently planning. I don’t know what will happen, I am certain things will get tough, but I will get tougher.
Tonight, God showed me why a lot of things happened. Why He had let me do a lot of things even if I was not sure why I was actually doing them, and why He had let me suffer some things that I didn’t deserve at all. I know that tonight, He made things clear.
It’s funny. Suddenly, I have a new perspective in life. In a matter of seconds, everything changed. Years of uncertainties suddenly became worth it. It is true, you do not have to figure things out at the moment because someday you will know why, what, and how. Thankfully, I just did.
It is healthy to always take note that everything will fall into their proper places, in the right time and at the right place. Just have faith that everything gets better in time. In this life, the last thing that you need is a negative mind. Just do your thing. Do it right, and everything else will follow. Sometimes things will mess up, that’s for sure, but it shouldn’t stop you from believing what’s worth believing – that God has a great plan for your life, and that the good life is just around the corner. 🌞
I know it has been months since my last entry. After my birthday last September, I started a new job and I am glad because it is the best one so far. I can really see myself staying in it, FINALLY. I also just finished the first semester of my master’s degree. I must say, one has to really have the right goals, immense drive, and dedicated time for it. It is truly not for everyone, and I’m still in the process of figuring out if it’s really for me. Still, it’s too early to quit! Thus, I will continue on my program until a “turning point” tells me otherwise. :)